by Tamiko Beyer
sometimes, waking
to the blank eyes
of the penthouse
windows I miss
you, Lady Starlight
everyone starts small
before they go big
you knew that darling –
starlight’s a faint glow
when the city pulses below
:: ::
my superfans
you little monsters:
who wants to fuck a boy
who wants to fuck a girl
now you see
me now I don’t
:: ::
this door the excess
I adore – once
I couldn’t pay
my LES rent
but I looked
fucking gorgeous –
Versace, Dior,
the real thing
and now what? now
what? bubbles! feathers!
metal collars!
appliqué, sequins, appliqué!
let your tongue
taste every
part of me,
monsters,
this purple satin art-
deco body suit
red lace crown
latex mini hoop
is for you, look
lovelies – lick it,
the waning the waxing
cover your eyes
all you pretty boys and girls
I am the pretty boy
the pretty pretty girl
the hot top
hot comet top
take my body take my body take my eyes
:: ::
Christina said: I didn’t know if it
was a man or a woman
sweetheart,
all that picture proves
is I know how to pack
and the whole world’s
invested in the binary
of shudder fuck shudder
:: ::
the awkward diva’s
born knowing the trick
is finding pleasure
when I explode
all the mirrors flash
:: ::
come write me into relevance
come adore me into stardom
lick and lick and lick
little monsters – you want it –
my cunt-fist-fame
darling god and darling gays
all the world shudders
my body my body my body my fist
my fame a fist my dick a fist
:: ::
dear star,
you cannot pin
the curled script
across my forearm
because I have been
more lonely than you
will ever know – cover
your eyes
:: ::
bring me my heels
my orbiting rings
my center all my
little monsters
drool into my platinum
wig: get to know what wet
feels like: this, your fist-
filled moment: Get out
there’s no other superstar
Behind starlight
this is the burn, the bend
the sunblind
this is the burn, the bend
the sunblind
Author Bio:
Tamiko Beyer’s poetry has appeared in The Sonora Review, Copper Nickel, diode, and elsewhere. She is a recipient of a grant from the Astraea Foundations’ Emerging Lesbian Writers Fund, and a Kundiman Asian American Poetry Fellow. She serves as the poetry editor at Drunken Boat, and is pursuing an M.F.A at Washington University in St. Louis.